Category Archives: meditation

A Land of My Own for Thanksgiving

This is my favorite week of the year. Thanksgiving. It always has been and I think it’s because my family spent it at my grandparent’s farm where I could take long walks with the birddog, find a spot along the creek, sit and write, for as long as I wanted.

I didn’t have the responsibly of planning, purchasing or cooking any meals, my mom did that. So I was free to roam, dream and write.

To paraphrase Virginia Wolfe, my “room of my own” was the outdoors. That’s where I could be alone for long periods of time. I didn’t have to engage with family, do chores, hear the TV.

We drove from our suburban home to the farm almost every weekend when I was growing up. So I had weekends to wander and much of the summer to do the same. Thanksgiving week held a special appeal and I’m still sorting out why it felt so different.

It might be because that was when the Texas weather switched from hot and dry to chilly and wet. The clouds created a tent of privacy where it was ok to lounge. That’s what I was doing, lounging outside with my journal and imagination.

The yearning to be outdoors has never left.

I live in the city though and it’s so hard to find a remote place where it’s ok for me to wander, sit and write.

Rather than a “room of my own” maybe I need “a land of my own.”

I Would Color This Winter Wind

The birds knew it just before I did.

They had been singing and flying tree to tree

following me on my morning walk.

The air was very still.

It was quiet except for the serenade of the birds…and squirrels.

Then silence.

They all landed on trees or scurried into bushes.

I stopped.

Then we were all blasted with the north wind.

This is how winter arrives in north Texas.

If I could color this wind

it would be a mix of white white white

and fresh sea blue.

It would be a swirl of these colors

rolling across the sky

leaving a shivering trail.

Nothing moves after it passes.

The grass, still green,

is shocked.

Not a blade bends.

This is when I bundle up and stay outside.

My neighbors know my blue ankle length Arctic coat

With boots, ski pants, hat, sweater and gloves.

I’m a pudgy figure waddling around our empty streets.

I belong outside.

I always have.

Mostly I like it warm,

just wearing shorts and a t-shirt.

But I’ve found a way to be in cold weather.

A kind of winter solidarity with the animals

who have no choice

other than to seek shelter and warmth

snuggled under leaves

and in bushes and nests.

I talk to them as I walk around.

I don’t see them

but I know they are there.

They know I’ll keep pouring water over the ice in the bird bath

and saucers I’ve set out for them.

I imagine them peering out at me.

I think they are thanking me.

I know I am them.